My other Mom

I have been trying to find a way to grieve since July 28, 2002 when I lost my aunt to gall bladder cancer. When I came across this web site, I was like, "yeah that's right, f*** cancer!" I have been reading the other posts, seeing pictures of other's family members, and to all of those who have battled and survived,well, in short, you are my hero. I cannot imagine a harder task then to fight everyday and then finally win. For lack of a stronger word, it must be truly rewarding to know you are in control of your life!

For those who have lost someone they loved like me to this horrible disease, I am so sorry. It is heartbreaking, but we live on and share/have memories that we will cherish forever, and then we pass those memories down to others.

My aunt had Crones Disease, which had made her weak before diagnosed with cancer. At her best, she weighed 100 lbs, and at her worst, 89 lbs. Cancer was never in the picture. She was only 48 when she died. I remember coming home after high school (I was 15) and my mom just sitting there on the couch crying and then told me the news. My aunt was my mom's older sister, and did not have kids of her own. My younger sister and I were her kids.

I remember the last day I saw her. She was covered in blankets, swollen all over her body, completely inflamed. I remember saying goodbye, like even then I knew it was the last time I would see her. My regret is that I didn't stay by her side longer. I miss her terribly.

F* cancer! It shouldn't take away those we love. Keep fighting.

-Jess (Chicago)